A Lot that happened over coffee

A zip that slips, and the slip that sweets,

A sweet that kicks , and the kick that hurts,

Hey Mr chapichino, its no more you and me,

You are in me. Its all meee ........

Sleepless Night

Breath stops its way at throat
Lungs filled with pain of cough
Sitting aware watching the pain
what's in me is causing this ?
Decided not to take any external help
To make the situation comfortable ....

The Journey of Illusion

Its no more a knowledge

Glimpsed a piece of experience

Saw that i was caught

In a web of impressions

Changed the frame of eyes

Suspected every thing I saw

Confusion on my boundaries

The world of illusion inside

Opens the door for journey

Tiruvannamalai Satsung

Cracked my world of illusion,

With your grace like a dynamite,

Crazy emotions pounding my heart,

Touching the inner core,

Poring tears in your eyes,

Melts my toughened heart,

Barrier brakes with your love

Tear leaks, joy peaks ...

The Mystery

Ye Mystery, you are amazing

My Loved one to pioneer

Always struggled to judge your

Decisions, thoughts, emotions

Failed then and there every day

Anxious search of love

Something pleasing is there in you

Plead me to explore that deep

Quench my thirst till our life ends

Hope you know my hunger

Will walk your shadow to look around

will you be?

The Monsoon

Flashing lights, breaking thunders

Tells me, she is coming

Rushed to the roof top to see her

It's been a year while I am waiting

North-East breeze brings her fragrance

Smelled her presence with closed eyes

She was there kissing my shoulders

Oh Monsoon, make me fully wet

I am here to dance with you

Hope you wont bluff with drizzles

Pour the plain, well enough

Bless the valley with love and grace...

The Wish

I thought I will wish you first, but sorry I failed. Any how I decided to wish you the best way than anyone could. Thoughts running over my mind, searching for how to do it. Finally I decided to write my thoughts as a poet for you. Hope you will like it and sorry that I could not write in Tamil. Even thought I think well, my bad written Tamil stops me...

I never believed till I see you
That some people’s presence can make me happy
There are only a few and you are the best
Searched my heart to find how to wish, found nothing
Nothing is not just nothing, it means everything
I just know one thing
Life nourished in your presence, and
I don’t want to lose it
Oh God beg you to hold my breath,
Only till I wish her for the last one...

Guru Darshan

There was a longing in me to see Sadhguru for a long while since I did my Shambavi mahamudra on Dec 2009. Finally it happened. We got info from Thillai anna in meeting that Sadhguru is coming to Chennai IIT and there is permission for volunteers to attend the meeting. Reached IIT by 4:30 pm. Meeting was about to by 5 pm. We had some good time with sound of Isha. Sadhguru was there by 5 and I am amazed to see him. I was too away from him. I was temted to go near him. We had a good inspiring speech by Sadhguru. When Sadhguru was about to start I tyred to reach near him. I ran around the auditorium to reach the opposite side where sadhguru was about to come to reach his car. I had a close look at him. Had a opportunity to touch him too. How amazing it was ... Still i feel the touch in my hands ...

The Fear

I never thought fear could be the reason for all ugliness happening with in me. Finally it was. Its too late to identify. At least I am happy that, I know what is holding me back. When i look back and see how fear affected my life, its a ditch. Fear stopped me from living to the fullest of my life, it makes me to live like an animal. And the worst thing is that it makes me to believe that the best way to live is the way I am. Still fear of future, fear of surrender, fear of rejection ,fear of being used, fear of safety , fear of losing etc is holding me back from living a flowered life. The only difference is that now i know i am with all this fears. Just trying to break out all my fears and blossom this world with love and joy.

Pain of Madness

It's crazy emotions of cosmic search,

edged the heights of pain and love,

tears out of joy and agony,

spreads biggest fear of loneliness,

in the middle like a clown,

travel to the inner core derived

only with the hope i have...

Cosmic Love

In my experience Love was an action till that moments struck my life. 4 days of Bhava-spandana Volunteering made my life explode. Understanding on life turns upside down. Experienced the state of love. Pleasure in radiating love was awesome. Through this blog I would like to share all my Bhava-spandana Volunteering experience. Here stars the story.

Its not that I just went there. There where lot of blocks for me to attend Bhava-spandana Program. It had to complete data entry work for Isha velachery team, work on outreach newsletter html, my office work, need to go without out my parents knowledge... Its 6 PM evening on that Wednesday, pushing all other thoughts aside i hold up my mind to go. Finally i started and missed electric train to go to central railway station. I know that i cant catch train to Coimbatore @ Central 9 pm, if i am waiting for next electric train. Decided to go to central by auto. Auto driver rushed through the traffic to reach station. Its was a close cache, train started moving. Finally got in to train where my friend marikannan is waiting with all my luggage. I was so hungry. No way to buy something on my travel. With love one of my co-passenger provided me with idly he had Thanked him with gratitude. We reached IYC at 7 am next morning. Provided them all my valuables and mobile to spanda hall reception. I was completely disconnected from the normal life. I went there thinking that Bhava-spandana Volunteering will make me to experience Bhava-spandana much deeper. But that night when we had a meeting with Thilla anna , he said that "we should see all the participants as GOD and its our responsibility to make all this people to experience Bhava-spandana." I have never imagined that I could put this much effort , every thing happened playfully. Bhava-spandana happened in me not because I want to experience it, but just because I want all my GOD to experience it. When ever I thing how Sadhguru happened my way it was playfully. I am gifted very much to have Sadhguru. The moments when I see tears out of love in my GODs eyes I dissolved. Experienced the cosmic dance of love. Ho god how could i express my experience ...

cosmic dance

The Temptation

Felt the new one,
Happened when I drive,
Spreads over the body,
Rushed back to home,
It’s Just a temptation to,
Sit with my eyes closed,
And watch myself.

Mother Nature

I just wondered what is it,

closed my eyes to meditate

tasted the pleasure of breating,

there is nothing more than me,

tears flowing out my eyes,

sneaked through the hole

to see the world of love and joy,

felt that drop of nothingness,

what else i can do ,

more than a surrender with you.

பிரோம் தி ஹார்ட்

பத்தாம் வகுப்பு முதல் காதல்
பக்கத்து வீட்டு பருவ பெண்
துன்பத்தில் மூழ்கி தவித்தது
இன்பத்தில் ஆழ்ந்து திளைத்தது
கண்கள் நீர்கண்ட கணங்கள்
இவைபோல சிந்தை பலஉண்டு
உன்னிடத்தில் சொல்வதற்கு.
என் இடது தோழ் சாய்ந்து
விரலிடை கை கோர்த்து
காலமெல்லாம் கதை பேச வராயோ
பசுமை உடுத்திய என் கவிதையே.

First Visit

I can't imaging how and why it happened. Yes speaking of my first visit to Isha Yoga Center. I believe strongly that some thing beyond my physical drew me there. It was my friends marriage reception on that evening at Thiruchegode. We all roomates went there. There was a thought in my mind for going to Isha Yoga Center and visit DhanayaLinga Temple. So I desided this is the time to go for it. Telling my friend that i will join the reception by evening, I left to my chiti home at Coimbatore. From there I left to Isha yoga center. I have never seen such a Sarine place ever in my life. Its such amazing. This visit intensifies my spiritual seeking. With in a month I attended basic yoga program conducted by IYC at Chennai - Velachery. From then my inward turn got much better focused. This gives me much more pain seeing all my dart's. But which always sheds light on my dark mind. My understanding on this whole life changed .Hope things are not so for ....

Pleasure in Planting

Always there was a attraction towards plants and trees from my childhood. I still remember my young age I love watering plants. My dad used to pick me to our farm frequently since i love watering coconut trees. Its when I attended Bavasbandana program at IYC, I experienced the soul of a small grass, from that moment my understanding on this whole life changed. The place we live is in need of trees, to protect our environment. We destroyed our environment and biological balance. Its our responsibility to make the things right.

I dreamed of planting trees for a long while since I attended BSP. I am deadly in search of place for planting. I was in not a easy task since i stayed in a apartments. Finally i found my friend Marimuthu's home which is located 16 KM west of Tambaram. I just went to a Isha Volunteer home at Guduvanchery to get the tree samplings. Got the samplings along with their love, we planted 12 trees that night. What a pleasure it is to plan a tree. My wish is that all need to experience the same ...

Tears out of Joy

Many people might not have experienced tears out of Joy. Me too till I attended bavasbandana program at Isha Yoga center. I remember my GURU saying "If a person has not experienced tears out of joy, he has not lived life yet". I might have missed my life , nothing can be done equivalent to what Sadhguru has done in my life. I felt crazy through out the program. I just realized love and love only. what else I can say about what i have experienced. Meta-physical experience are always hard to explain. To say simply its Ultimate Joy

மெய்ப்பொருள்

உன்னைத் தழுவி முத்தமிட்டு
உன் நிழல் என்னை பிரியாது
வாழும் கனவு கண்டேன்,
கனவு நனவாக சில செயல்கள்
செய்தும், என் அறியாமையால் செய்த
பல செயல்கள் காரணமாய் உந்தன்
நிழல் தொலைதூரத்தில் இருப்பதென்ன,
கணம் கணம் மனதில் ரணம்,
கனவு நனவாகும் நாள் வருமா?

மெய்ப்பொருள் நோக்கிய பயணத்தில்....

Ashram Travel

Thank God, This is a amazing moment when I just think of the happenings at our Ashram visit. Normally when we go there for some programs, we will not be allowed to reach out most part of the Ashram. This visit organized by velacheri team help me in knowing about Isha yoga center well. Specially our visit to Isha home school. No one can ever imagine such a school. Learning's are happening at joy there. One can not realize its potential until they see that. Next thing i need to share is about is Sadhana hall. What a structure it is, a half ellipsoid shape. I thing there should be some spritual significance with the structure.

Will never forget those days.

Morning Wake Up

Days passed very fast as usual, suddenly i realized I am going be elder one more year. Yes its my birth day today. I still have not opened my my eyes. I was just thinking of sweetest moments in my life in the past one year. No one wished me till that moment. With mind filled little sadness, i just opened my eyes and took my mobile to check Time. To my surprise i got a message from my sweet dear friend. To say the reality i was in ecstasy, that i was been wished by my dear. My stupid mind suddenly hurts me asking that, did u wished her on her birth day?. Then it speaks it self that past is past we will surprise her next time and calms down.
Then i remembered an old adage that "You are really lucky when find a good friend". Nothing can be compared to the moment that i saw her wish. Writing this blog by feeling that bliss . I am dedicating this block to you my dear.

Pranams,