The Monsoon

Flashing lights, breaking thunders

Tells me, she is coming

Rushed to the roof top to see her

It's been a year while I am waiting

North-East breeze brings her fragrance

Smelled her presence with closed eyes

She was there kissing my shoulders

Oh Monsoon, make me fully wet

I am here to dance with you

Hope you wont bluff with drizzles

Pour the plain, well enough

Bless the valley with love and grace...

The Wish

I thought I will wish you first, but sorry I failed. Any how I decided to wish you the best way than anyone could. Thoughts running over my mind, searching for how to do it. Finally I decided to write my thoughts as a poet for you. Hope you will like it and sorry that I could not write in Tamil. Even thought I think well, my bad written Tamil stops me...

I never believed till I see you
That some people’s presence can make me happy
There are only a few and you are the best
Searched my heart to find how to wish, found nothing
Nothing is not just nothing, it means everything
I just know one thing
Life nourished in your presence, and
I don’t want to lose it
Oh God beg you to hold my breath,
Only till I wish her for the last one...

Guru Darshan

There was a longing in me to see Sadhguru for a long while since I did my Shambavi mahamudra on Dec 2009. Finally it happened. We got info from Thillai anna in meeting that Sadhguru is coming to Chennai IIT and there is permission for volunteers to attend the meeting. Reached IIT by 4:30 pm. Meeting was about to by 5 pm. We had some good time with sound of Isha. Sadhguru was there by 5 and I am amazed to see him. I was too away from him. I was temted to go near him. We had a good inspiring speech by Sadhguru. When Sadhguru was about to start I tyred to reach near him. I ran around the auditorium to reach the opposite side where sadhguru was about to come to reach his car. I had a close look at him. Had a opportunity to touch him too. How amazing it was ... Still i feel the touch in my hands ...

The Fear

I never thought fear could be the reason for all ugliness happening with in me. Finally it was. Its too late to identify. At least I am happy that, I know what is holding me back. When i look back and see how fear affected my life, its a ditch. Fear stopped me from living to the fullest of my life, it makes me to live like an animal. And the worst thing is that it makes me to believe that the best way to live is the way I am. Still fear of future, fear of surrender, fear of rejection ,fear of being used, fear of safety , fear of losing etc is holding me back from living a flowered life. The only difference is that now i know i am with all this fears. Just trying to break out all my fears and blossom this world with love and joy.

Pain of Madness

It's crazy emotions of cosmic search,

edged the heights of pain and love,

tears out of joy and agony,

spreads biggest fear of loneliness,

in the middle like a clown,

travel to the inner core derived

only with the hope i have...

Cosmic Love

In my experience Love was an action till that moments struck my life. 4 days of Bhava-spandana Volunteering made my life explode. Understanding on life turns upside down. Experienced the state of love. Pleasure in radiating love was awesome. Through this blog I would like to share all my Bhava-spandana Volunteering experience. Here stars the story.

Its not that I just went there. There where lot of blocks for me to attend Bhava-spandana Program. It had to complete data entry work for Isha velachery team, work on outreach newsletter html, my office work, need to go without out my parents knowledge... Its 6 PM evening on that Wednesday, pushing all other thoughts aside i hold up my mind to go. Finally i started and missed electric train to go to central railway station. I know that i cant catch train to Coimbatore @ Central 9 pm, if i am waiting for next electric train. Decided to go to central by auto. Auto driver rushed through the traffic to reach station. Its was a close cache, train started moving. Finally got in to train where my friend marikannan is waiting with all my luggage. I was so hungry. No way to buy something on my travel. With love one of my co-passenger provided me with idly he had Thanked him with gratitude. We reached IYC at 7 am next morning. Provided them all my valuables and mobile to spanda hall reception. I was completely disconnected from the normal life. I went there thinking that Bhava-spandana Volunteering will make me to experience Bhava-spandana much deeper. But that night when we had a meeting with Thilla anna , he said that "we should see all the participants as GOD and its our responsibility to make all this people to experience Bhava-spandana." I have never imagined that I could put this much effort , every thing happened playfully. Bhava-spandana happened in me not because I want to experience it, but just because I want all my GOD to experience it. When ever I thing how Sadhguru happened my way it was playfully. I am gifted very much to have Sadhguru. The moments when I see tears out of love in my GODs eyes I dissolved. Experienced the cosmic dance of love. Ho god how could i express my experience ...

cosmic dance